I Am Living What I've Prayed For

by - Sunday, April 17, 2016

Happy Sunday:

Life has a way of humbling you down.
Mine came through an Instagram post last week.

I've been having a bout with ungratefulness as of late as I think about my future. Where will I be a year from now? Do I see myself remaining in this career for the long haul? Is any of this even up to me? What fate am I preparing to meet?

A couple years ago this time, I was in a rut. I was unhappy with virtually everything going on in my life. I set some things in motion to make changes for what I thought would be the better; some worked, some didn't. Eventually I found myself in another rut of sorts, and made more changes, which ultimately led me to where I am now. If there's anything I can say, it's that I am adaptable.

I find myself in these 'ruts' when I don't think I have enough of something, whether it be money, some type of status, solitude (I like my alone time), attention, whatever have you. It often seems I am never satisfied, or that something is still missing from my life.

And then life punched me in the face last week, interestingly, through the Instagram post that you see above.

I was having a pity party about something I can't even remember, while scrolling social media, and the post stopped me in my tracks. It stopped my scrolling and it stopped my brain from rambling and worrying. It's not often that my brain isn't going, but this here made me think: wth was I worrying about??

Literally everything that has transpired for me over the past year has been exactly what I have prayed for. Everything. I reflected on how badly I wanted to become an expat, and how divinely that had worked in my favor. I reflected on how life has been here in South Korea, how I've endured through some rough patches but I've also had a comfort that I've never known in my life until now. I reflected on how I've become a seasoned traveler, visiting places I likely would have never seen before, in just two years time. I reflected on the good news I got back from the doctor that cared for me during my ailment here, and how it could have been worse. So really, what in the hell am I over here worrying over?

I am currently living what I have prayed for.



Humble my whole heart, and help me to remain mindful of this when I'm feeling down; or, when I'm feeling as if what I have is not enough. It's okay to want more, but it's also important to acknowledge strides no matter the size.

Thank You, GOD,  for allowing me to strive for a thing, and see it come to fruition many times over.


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